nothingness.

"it is a truth universally acknowledged that a single man in possession of a good fortune must be in want of a wife."

"She is tolerable; but not handsome enough to tempt me; and I am in no humour at present to give consequence to young ladies who are slighted by other men."

"Happiness in marriage is entirely a matter of chance. If the dispositions of parties are ever so well known to each other, or ever so similar beforehand, it does not advance their felicity in the least. They always grow sufficiently unlike afterwards their share of vexation, and it is better to know as little as possible of the defects of the person with whom you are to pass your life."

"You're conjecture is totally wrong, I assure you. My mind was more agreeably engaged. I have been meditating on the very great pleasure which of fine eyesin the face of a pretty woman can bestow."

"Miss Elizabeth Bennet."

"Nothing is more deceitful," Said Mr. Darcy, "than the appearance of humility. It is often only carelessness of opinion, and sometimes an indirect boast."

that's it for now, i'm kinda hafta to something else even though i want to post more nonsense here.

i'm back

ahhh. i know it's been a long time. hehe. surprisingly to say, i was not online for the past week. one reason maybe is because i was sick for the past week. i WAS addicted to pain killers. literally. i can't stop myself taking drugs for the pain to go away. of course i was able to control myself if not, i may not be wrting this blog. another reason is, i am busy really busy. even though i was sick, i continued my routine. remember the pain killer? yeah, that's it. another reason maybe is just that, i don't want to blog or anything. in short, i detached myself from the outside world. my world last week was this four- cornered house of ours. and it's fine with me. and it's been more than a week with no communication whatsoever with my friends. yes, there are constant messages from them and i have no credits to reply to any of them. and today was my chance to see them, but unfortunately, i wasn't able to see them, hehe. mom said that i should go home agad. that's it.

oh yeah, i am really disappointed with the grades i got. curse microeco. curse venida. aish.

i realized that summer class' gonna start the week after next. sheesh. and that's april 3. oh mehn. back to square one. i should make the most out of the 1 week left. ;p

ultimate trust

so many things happened today that got into my nerves. betrayal, trusting, and giving another chance to a person.

anyway, no classes. and my life has gotten more and more unbearable. why? i've got nothing to do, and the email i'm waiting for is let us just say i sent it weeks ago. arg. and more and more problems seem to come rather than go. tch. i'm falling apart. tch. their lives are falling apart because of, what else, but trust.
i think if a person doesn't trust those who are around her/him, that person is better off alone. right? right? anyONE?!

What would happen if you fall?

They always say, “When you fall, someone will always be there to catch you.” But that only applies to people who have someone by their side.

What if you’ve always been alone? What if you’re a loner, a lost soul on the road of life, with a heart that’s shattered into thousands of broken shards, and covered in scars that are too deep to be healed by time? What if all you see is darkness ahead of you, and a vague, unpromising future as a loner? The identical shades of blackness... what if that’s all you can see?

What if… you’re fumbling in a world that’s all too foreign and unknown to you? What if you have no one to turn to when you need a shoulder to cry on? What if no one is there to provide you with the support and comfort you need to get through life? What if you have no companion on the arduous journey of life; no one to encourage you when you’re doubting yourself; no one to give you a little push on the back when the times are tough?

What if you fall right then, who will be there to catch you? The prince charming that you’ve dreamed about since you were a little girl or the special someone who never showed up? Would you continue to fall and wait for the unreal moment that only can happen in fairytales to occur to you in real life?

I wouldn’t. I would just close my eyes, accept what fate has planned out for me and fall through the thin air so weightlessly, feeling my own hair fluttering and caressing my own cheeks, and the emptiness in my silently pounding heart, because I know, no one would be there to catch me when I fall.
Forever forgotten in the deep abyss of oblivion, that’s where I will end up at.
----aisaki sumi

summer is driving me insaaaaneeeeee! the heat, boredom and all!!!!!!!!

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the keyboard's back! wow. sarap ng feeling. haha! may spacebar na ulit! hehe.
it's saturday and i can feel the heat of the summer! i had an oral exam yesterday. and it's funny or irritating maybe, coz all the things i've read for that; the fables,short stories and even the novel, were put to waste. my question: How did the genre of fiction evolved from the fables to the short stories? i wanted to ask my prof: what's the question again? i think my mind went blank for a second. hehe. what i reviewed was the stories. and all i did sa time na bigay niya sken, is just doodle on my paper. hehe. then i began my piece. fables are like.. the theme of these two..blah..blah..blah.. and she asked something i do not know. "From our discussions, what is the meaning of a short story?" uh-oh.. i forgot that! because i'm not a student who will take down noted in a lecture. gosh. and at last, she gave me a clue.. slicing her hand.. ding! i remember! short story is a slice of a cake! hahah! funny! it's not a cake, but a slice/ portion of life. oh, well, at least i got it naman. hehe. binawi ko agad ung cake and changed it to life! and the oral exam ended there! whew! i'm done!

my schedule for next week:
Monday: 8am- 5pm Recollection, Microeconomics finals submission
Tuesday: 9am-11am Finman finals, 1pm-1.10pm hr oral exam, submission of theology paper.

and i'm free for the rest of the week! yey! summer, here i come! wait, i'm free til april 3 coz of the summer class--- feasibility study.

i might as well try it.

god. finally! no more i.d. class! yes, yes, yes! here's a list of what i'm supposed to do til classes end:

1. March 6- english film viewing, exhibit
2. March 8- final exam on phil. consti.
3. March 9- maybe hr finals
4. March 10- oral exam on english 12.40-11.00
5. March 13- recollection
6. March 14- final exam on finman, theology paper

i should start studying right now, but i can't help but relax. hehehe. anyway, i found a video of i'm sorry i love you series!! yay! haha! i can watch it anytime na!! woohoo! naku, bumabalik naman yung feeling sa bali at i'm sorry! shucks.

e- mailed him, but i really can't tell him what i am supposed to say to him. oh well. i just have to tell him some other time i guess.