this is shane's thinking seat!

morose. that's it. why am i feeling this way? i don't even know the reason behind it. now, i'll be happy and the next, i am sad. extremes. i dunno what's making me feel this way. it's always the "maybe" this was it, or maybe that's it. rg, can't stand it anymore. i hate this. i think it started last thursday morning. then, the next thing i knew, i am extremely sad. it's as if i want to punch something. i don't want to hear any yelling or irritating voices. i don't like to hear anyone shouting or fighting. baka lng magexplode ako. emotions are bottled inside of me. one wrong thing, i'll get mad. i don't want to be demanded by anyone. i just want to disappear. for now that is. pampalipas lang. i even didn't pay much attention to the movie a while ago. people were so noisy and "nearly" irritating. in short, i was uncomfortable. i even thought of just standing up and go straight to the exit. but i know it will be o just stand up and leave. i wanted to clear my mind. parang pensieve. leave some of my memories in a tub. hehe. arg, what is happening to me???!! i certainly don't like it.